Tuesday, October 26, 2004
hmm.. it haf been a long long time tt i nv update my blog.. lol.. lynnie nagging ler.. hmm.. pass few days was being a v v good ger.. N level oso nv lik tt.. haf been revising my work lo.. even went out to study with a few of my fren to study on saturday.. haf been practicing for my work, duno y oso suddenly de.. mayb i wake up ler i haf beeen slagging from t beggining til now, worst for this term smtimes even skip class... mayb am scared to lose to others wahaha.. 28 days more to my exams sure i will do it.. today got a progress test for my BK but not accountable teacher wana see whether how well are we prepared cos this monday got Common test 40% wor.. at first am v panic cos i can't balance my amt but i stil gt alot of time la duno y i panic oso but i try n managed to get cos am careless.. i aim v high for bk de so... teacher mark on e spot heehee i got full marks so happy but my class duno stil gt how mani full marks so far i noe got one ger same as me le.. wah now v competitive i v scared lo.. i wanna do v v well.... wana b t best in my class but v hard.. sian diao.. will put on oil to do more revision liao..
hm.... am turning to t way i use to b everyday smiling happily in sch.. haf been mixing with JO,joyce ,jeline,jasmine..lol onli J ppl can b with me isit wahhaa... they are nice n good students of cos wun influence me de.. will study together.. am stil in t grp la but i wun follow them to skip class unecessarly lah.. am controlling myself .. even am v v tired i stil attend lesson.. realli duno wad happened to me i felt so hardworking in a sudden.. jus hope it's a continious one.. i will not let my teacher down esp my mama mdm juhariah she put high hope on me and advice me must at least spent one hour each day to do self-study.. i will do it de..
today wake up early sia.. cos t stupid assembly can't managed to catch my train so guess wad i took a cab to admiratly mrt to tak my pasir ris train.. hehee.. went sch alone lo than meet frenx at canteen stil left 10 mins so i took my breakfast haha.. after tt efw hm.. get back my CA results 90/100 haha quite satisfic with it.. metta tell me she gt gastric pain i told her to go eat or drink milk but she refuse to do so.. suddenly she cry arh.. teacher saw it than asked me to bring her to haf a drink lo she stil refused so me n angie dragged her go canteen.. bought milo for her.. sit there chit chat hahaha treat it as a break lo :P than wah saw ed lo he late sia than come sit with us a while than he go le.. actualli nth reali happened today . jus heard of a bad news from bao tt she haf lost interest in her studies le .. hope she dun gv up reaching t end le jus finished it with a cert in hand.. i v tired hope t nite is longer than day not enuff slp sad..
take care all frenz.. lynnie all e best in ur O's dun gv up mus lik me arh hardworking lol :P
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:20 PM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
hMm.. today got foto taking wor.. know wad so sad my form teacher did nt turn up for it.. so sad... sobzz.. dunno where is she searching for her, calling for her no response from her.. so we took it without her.. we invite mrs ng n mrs tay to tak with us... can't wait to look at t foto... hee... was a short day today went to sch at 11 cos i skip etp today.. haha.. yest do BK til v v late 1+ so v tired lo.. this morning kal joyce packet her dad's noodle for me.. ***yummy** so delicious... was quite a boring day today, seeing some childish kids in my class. wahaha.. think tt's all bah..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:15 PM
hMm.. today got foto taking wor.. know wad so sad my form teacher did nt turn up for it.. so sad... sobzz.. dunno where is she searching for her, calling for her no response from her.. so we took it without her.. we invite mrs ng n mrs tay to tak with us... can't wait to look at t foto... hee... was a short day today went to sch at 11 cos i skip etp today.. haha.. yest do BK til v v late 1+ so v tired lo.. this morning kal joyce packet her dad's noodle for me.. ***yummy** so delicious... was quite a boring day today, seeing some childish kids in my class. wahaha.. think tt's all bah..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
8:15 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
woo hoo... t time now is 0625 damm early woke up at 5.40 norhx.. tired tired.. yest nite slp at one plus.. eleven i go practice my work, watching t tv at t same time lol.. cannot totally concentrate at work de lo .. i will die .. didn't practice long lo cos ed cal n chat on t fone.. chat for ard an hour lo.. always suan me de.. bleahz.. yeah i managed to d/l songs to mp3 myself le.. so this few days will b getting songs from fren all tt lol.. so happy.. will get almost of t songs from kh bah cos he's willing to send me all so kind of him lol... hai yo me gotto go prepare for assembly le if nt late.. update again tonite might b goin for movie lata..
hm.. no movie haix on time for it le.. bz bz bz.. now my brain cell full of book keeping stuff.. goin mad le..... haf been practicing but stil nt sure no confident.. stil goto do profit n loss ac for etp.. so many things... so sian haix... another day haf passed lata at nite practice again BK.. tml tak class foto le.. heehee..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:25 AM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
yeappy so fast sunday ler wor.. sobx.. hm.. yest nite am a hardworking ger leh lol.. i practice my BK i spent 3hours+ and FINALLY i solved my Qn 5 actualli is so easy am stupid.. lol.. nvm at least i try n i did it.. happy.. slp at abt 3+am lor.. not tired duno y..
actualli meeting bao bao today 1230 de but i postponed to 1330 cos i wana slp but guess wad i wake up at 10+ lorh.. stupid can't fall back to slp.. my sunday dreamz is ruined lol.. same old thing on t com than go prepare all tt cos meeting bao to go gym.. at least do a bit of exercise if nt i will turn to a pig soonzz... work up 1h+ cos v tired lorh.. am weak okai.. walk to cck than haf a window shopping v long nv go out on weekend le.. kelian rite.. no ppl wan is lik tt de :( heheex.. rubbish la.. nothing much lah..
haha guess wad ed call me sia ask me free to tok ma.. long long time update me one time damm it lol.. let me listen to songs n chat with him for ard 1h than he go eat super.. tt ah siao ride bicycle oso can tok bth him i dun wana call oso cannot..when he reached le his fren disturb so hang down norhx.. than he wana cal back lata but me wana zZzZzz le too bad.. feeling for him not tt strong le.. end of story lol... :)
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:45 PM
yest.. woke up early cos got assembly lorh.. sianx.. meet yl go sch with me, only friday can go with her.. ai yo half way she feel sick duno wad happened to her sure is skip her meal de.. killing her... wah at t assembly ground t stupid teacher tok so long ruin my plan i wana go eat breakfast de leh.. lol :P than we go to com lab for BSA heheex.. guess wad we went for our breakfast cos teacher haben come stil eat v slowly sia than sneak back teacher nv scold heng arh.. after tt efw wah teacher wana check our work sia, scared scared she so fierce de shot at a few of them. luckily i give her yest ler.. a normal day ppl start to tok to me again ler lo.. as their wish i dun gv a damm.. i will mix with everyone ard me not jus them.. me always haf bao joyce wan n many other in my class to b with me.. always tok rubbish together.. my main aim is to study go RC's.. after sch went lib to join KC for revision go there 3hrs sia do my BK.. haix gotto start my revision le cos i slag too much in class le.. nt attentive at all. shall put everything aside not.. tt's all bah
hm... today gotto b a boring day cos me will b staying home t whole day.. dun intend to go out.. will do some self study lata.. suddenly i feel tt i am a book worms liao wor.. lol...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
6:26 AM
Friday, October 15, 2004
haix.. yest i slp earliest 11+ cos my eyes are far too tired this few day keep on crying.. useless me..
woke up quite punctual today onli delay abt 10 mins.. so prepare to go sch lo n hope everything wil b fine.. so azlan msg me wana meet me for sch so i say alrite.. waited at cck for him.. at least gt ppl acc me go sch.. told him abit my thingy lo..
was late for PE saw them playing captain ball (joyce,wan,chew hau,angie,jas,geoffrey,bao) some smiled to me no one asked me to join was rather sad a while more i go back to bench than tak out my fone thinking of yl so msg her.. v worried.. but a while more they stopped so i play badminton with bao so funny alot of ppl luff at me.. than i hurt my nails.. aouch!! so pain than i stop t game stil v early wor i go library read newspaper than pe end ler so join them back go tak books.. after tt they went in e lift not wanting to wait :( wan,joy,me went to t canteen i go change thani go back class.. but t classroom was stil ocupied by others, they were sitting at another class so joyce went in first i waited a while than i go in.. than all keep quiet ler than we returned to own class.. not wanting to sit with them so i sit another table.. wtf auntie sit bside me i jump out n go back sit with them lo.. FUCK OFF AUNTIE.. than they tok lo so i join in but feeling v xtra in e same time msging with yl, suddenly received a msg from joyce she told me jus now in e room they saying abt me call me dun react so big.. i told her haha..nvm.. i dun care oso.. but am feeling deep down inside.. dun u feel tt they putting a v v FAKE n BIG mask infront of me..
went to POT room for lesson lo gt tok gt luff but oso feeling lonely n sad in t same time luckily gt josephine acc me tok to me.. my grp ppl play in e POT room so childish play til shu wei cry.. haix.. JO tok to me during OFP told me shu wei wana play stil wana cry i say is lik tt de use to it le.. i told her abit my few days prob with them n she say i dun belong to them cos i nt childish.. think le oso wana luff.. nvm lo didn't tel her muchie cos (qiang you er) - wall got ears.. lol without them i feel even betta i saw them i think of how they treat me.. HOW i wish i am in another land.. haix haix.. i duno isit realli my big fault lo..
12.10.04 angie told me
angie: wad happened to ur nick
wt: nth
angie: as mdm juhariah say wad u dun lik abt ur fren u haf to tell them
wt: i agreed alot with teacher
angie: there is smthing i long wanting to tell u jus scared tt u can't tak it but wana treasure u as a fren i decided to tel u
wt: go ahead it's alrite with me
angie: i dun lik u keep saying me a useless chairperson in e 1st place i nv choose to b one u all vote me to b de, u put urself in my shoes how u will feel
wt: i am realli sorry i was jk dunno it b came lik tt realli sorry i will nt say any more
angie: nvm want to let u noe onli, dun u think tt u are being left out this few days
wt: wad happen is there anything else except this thingy regards u
angie: i duno i dun wan pass words u ask them personally
i haf nth to say so i asked those who gt online.. duno wad they said to others t next days all changed,till as if i am in e great fault everyone was looking at me as if i am from another world n say me so loud til i can hear( metta to jas: she wanna noe we tell her ler she wanna change or not is her own will) this was such a small prob CHANGE WAD all i nid to do is jus dun say tt phrase anymore did i say i DID wanna say again wad they noe they noe nth i asked sm did i change is b cos angie asked me to asked their opinion de ma- cos i oso feel am being left out- b cos of this than i asked de if nt u think i bother to asked) are this v big matter no lo HOW come b come lik tt who is t ghost who add salt+paper+sugar+vinegar.. angie was nt in sch WORST.. 13.10.04
haix dun realli care if they treat me as fren they cannot tok at t back of me.. now can they put themselve in my shoes.. am not wanting to noe wd had happened. i wun change b cos of them to suit them as if they are realli t great ppl amongst everyone in my life.
ppl who make me will get revenge de.. TRUST ME
went hm after etp with jas xian walk to interchange saw ed in e mrt station he act cute trying to fight with me using mouth so i fight back at least saw him make me happier abit eventhough is lik quarrel.. nt lik those childish kids out there
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:46 AM
