Friday, October 15, 2004
haix.. yest i slp earliest 11+ cos my eyes are far too tired this few day keep on crying.. useless me..
woke up quite punctual today onli delay abt 10 mins.. so prepare to go sch lo n hope everything wil b fine.. so azlan msg me wana meet me for sch so i say alrite.. waited at cck for him.. at least gt ppl acc me go sch.. told him abit my thingy lo..
was late for PE saw them playing captain ball (joyce,wan,chew hau,angie,jas,geoffrey,bao) some smiled to me no one asked me to join was rather sad a while more i go back to bench than tak out my fone thinking of yl so msg her.. v worried.. but a while more they stopped so i play badminton with bao so funny alot of ppl luff at me.. than i hurt my nails.. aouch!! so pain than i stop t game stil v early wor i go library read newspaper than pe end ler so join them back go tak books.. after tt they went in e lift not wanting to wait :( wan,joy,me went to t canteen i go change thani go back class.. but t classroom was stil ocupied by others, they were sitting at another class so joyce went in first i waited a while than i go in.. than all keep quiet ler than we returned to own class.. not wanting to sit with them so i sit another table.. wtf auntie sit bside me i jump out n go back sit with them lo.. FUCK OFF AUNTIE.. than they tok lo so i join in but feeling v xtra in e same time msging with yl, suddenly received a msg from joyce she told me jus now in e room they saying abt me call me dun react so big.. i told her haha..nvm.. i dun care oso.. but am feeling deep down inside.. dun u feel tt they putting a v v FAKE n BIG mask infront of me..
went to POT room for lesson lo gt tok gt luff but oso feeling lonely n sad in t same time luckily gt josephine acc me tok to me.. my grp ppl play in e POT room so childish play til shu wei cry.. haix.. JO tok to me during OFP told me shu wei wana play stil wana cry i say is lik tt de use to it le.. i told her abit my few days prob with them n she say i dun belong to them cos i nt childish.. think le oso wana luff.. nvm lo didn't tel her muchie cos (qiang you er) - wall got ears.. lol without them i feel even betta i saw them i think of how they treat me.. HOW i wish i am in another land.. haix haix.. i duno isit realli my big fault lo..
12.10.04 angie told me
angie: wad happened to ur nick
wt: nth
angie: as mdm juhariah say wad u dun lik abt ur fren u haf to tell them
wt: i agreed alot with teacher
angie: there is smthing i long wanting to tell u jus scared tt u can't tak it but wana treasure u as a fren i decided to tel u
wt: go ahead it's alrite with me
angie: i dun lik u keep saying me a useless chairperson in e 1st place i nv choose to b one u all vote me to b de, u put urself in my shoes how u will feel
wt: i am realli sorry i was jk dunno it b came lik tt realli sorry i will nt say any more
angie: nvm want to let u noe onli, dun u think tt u are being left out this few days
wt: wad happen is there anything else except this thingy regards u
angie: i duno i dun wan pass words u ask them personally
i haf nth to say so i asked those who gt online.. duno wad they said to others t next days all changed,till as if i am in e great fault everyone was looking at me as if i am from another world n say me so loud til i can hear( metta to jas: she wanna noe we tell her ler she wanna change or not is her own will) this was such a small prob CHANGE WAD all i nid to do is jus dun say tt phrase anymore did i say i DID wanna say again wad they noe they noe nth i asked sm did i change is b cos angie asked me to asked their opinion de ma- cos i oso feel am being left out- b cos of this than i asked de if nt u think i bother to asked) are this v big matter no lo HOW come b come lik tt who is t ghost who add salt+paper+sugar+vinegar.. angie was nt in sch WORST.. 13.10.04
haix dun realli care if they treat me as fren they cannot tok at t back of me.. now can they put themselve in my shoes.. am not wanting to noe wd had happened. i wun change b cos of them to suit them as if they are realli t great ppl amongst everyone in my life.
ppl who make me will get revenge de.. TRUST ME
went hm after etp with jas xian walk to interchange saw ed in e mrt station he act cute trying to fight with me using mouth so i fight back at least saw him make me happier abit eventhough is lik quarrel.. nt lik those childish kids out there
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:46 AM
